omoisugi

collision

Sun, 05 May 2013 09:23:49 +0900

It was really weird — everything I had avoided came back to haunt me all at once.

choices

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 16:02:37 +0900

I’m often asked why I’ve made the decisions that I’ve made. While to me it came naturally, I suppose it must be odd if I’m to receive inquiries.

Why did you stay home that day?
Why did you leave?
Why did you not tell him?
Why did you have to say it in that way?
Why would you never go back?
Why…why…why…

For the reason that at the time it felt right. That exact moment I was there, I truly believed I had made the right choice. And in five, ten, twenty, forty, years from now, I will still look back and think the same.

There was no one in that ceremony that I cared about enough to show up for.
Eighteen years I felt miserable growing up in that city.
I knew the answer without him telling me, and it would’ve broken my heart to hear him say it aloud.
I wanted to know if I could still be loved if I said exactly how I felt, no matter how disgusting my feelings were.

And I would never go back, because I cry when I think about it.

There were never any guarantees of something better if I had done differently. For them to imply that I’ve committed some grave mistakes, well, it sickens me. It sickens me, because I know I haven’t mistaken. It sickens me because I know they could be right.

snip

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 14:28:41 +0900

it’s become simple to toss, cut, and burn.

i don’t believe i’m any happier,
but i do believe i’m much stronger.

reality / tv

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 10:31:03 +0900

I’m always a bit relieved when it’s never as bad as it is on TV,
But it also kills me that it can never be as good.

You.

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 20:56:39 +0900

I’m alright if I lose all those other people,
Because I know I’ve already got the best one.
It’s taken a lot of fights and faith for me to realize this.

early sunsets

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 20:01:00 +0900

sometimes the sun is so red that it makes the sky look like it will burn everything it touches.
sometimes I wish that it would.

apathy

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 21:37:38 +0900

I can’t be hurt if I choose not to care.

lightbulb

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 20:58:00 +0900

I was always waiting for something big to change my life
And now I realize my life did change
By all the little things I’ve never noticed

capacity

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 00:34:00 +0900

i feel that i am capable of more.
more importantly, i feel that i deserve more.

i don’t feel that i can attain the “more” that i want.
but i feel that i can only gain as long as i try.

i feel that i have the capacity to try, and to try more.
i do believe that this is the first i’ve felt this way.

Equivalency

Thu, 27 Sep 2012 00:10:23 +0900

People in this world can’t gain without giving,
And I put my heart out there for the taking.

You took, and,

And I never saw clearly what you offered,
And I wonder how you got away with it.

good company

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:25:36 +0900

Sometimes, my favorite conversations are the ones that never happened.

destination

Sat, 25 Aug 2012 08:52:39 +0900

i am everything that i want to be,
i’m just not where i want to be yet.

weakness

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 00:12:48 +0900

this shouldn’t affect me as much as it does.

first impression

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 22:01:04 +0900

I believe you must be a good person,
Because you take such beautiful pictures.

guilty pleasure?

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 18:22:07 +0900

I love seeing unflattering pictures of people I don’t like.

worklife.

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 21:43:50 +0900

The worst part about my job is that no one cares about me.
The best part about my job is that no one cares about me.

talk talk talk talk

Wed, 30 May 2012 21:09:37 +0900

I know you’re never really listening, but I honestly don’t mind. You see, I just like to talk, but I don’t want to talk to myself. And that’s where you come in. You are there for me to tell myself I’m not crazy.

People

Mon, 28 May 2012 19:50:19 +0900

The more I work with people, the more I hate people.
I don’t like to think of myself as people,
But I have to become people,
Or else I would most definitely lose.

Subconsciouses

Sun, 27 May 2012 00:27:26 +0900

My subconscious wishes that you would talk to me again.

But my sub-subconscious wishes that someone new would come along, so that my subconscious wouldn’t yearn for you.

Smile

Tue, 22 May 2012 19:41:43 +0900

You look really mean when you’re not smiling, so I try to make you laugh every chance I get.